possible inactivity

[Cher]

heey kids Cher here, how are all you doing??

i wanted to let you guys know that i may or may not be inactive soon, and i know that if there's a chance i won't be, then this thread is pretty pointless.. but i don't know whats going to happen in the next few days or month.. so, call it what you want.


for one, the main reason is that september 2012 - 2013 (present day) has been a really tough time for me. it started when my cousin Cody suicided after getting out of rehab and.. everything went downhill after that. in febuary and march my grandparents on my moms side both passed as well. my grandmother had a stroke and my grandfather lost his battle with cancer soon after. 


due to the short time period between losing all three of them, nobody had a chance to fully recover, including me.. and it was a lot to take in. 

but the main reason is that the other day my mom died from a massive brain hemorrhage in a mere 3 hours at the hospital.. and i was always so mean to her. i never got to say sorry, i didn't get to say i love you, i didn't get to tell her how much she meant to me or how great of a mother she is and that even though she doesn't agree she was the best person i've ever had in my entire life.. i don't even know if she was able to hear me when i finally got the chance.

but.. seeing as my dad and the rest of my family lives in new jersey, i'm not sure whether i'm moving there or staying where i am. (to be honest i really don't want to move but i don't think i have a say in that.) we still have to arrange a funeral and everything so i guess the next few days are going to be hectic. 


and i'm kind of going through major dysphoria right now.. so if i disappear or snap at you.. or just annoy you or be rude to you i'm really sorry, and i hope you can understand. i'm not sure whether my activity will change or not, but if it does then you know why. 


i hope you guys are doing well though. i thought i should just let everyone know.
those of you who have me on skype, feel free to talk to me still. i actually wouldn't mind it at all. but i can't guarantee you i'll be entertaining.

tl;dr? 

theres a chance i will be gone for a bit. and just.. don't take anything for granted.. especially not your family, okay? okay.



i love you guys

[Deleted]

We love you too, Cher. I offer my condolences, if it makes you feel any better. We'll wait as long as it takes for you to say hi again. :) (at least I will...)

<3

[Vei]

Cher... you know my standpoint... And I will wait a thousand years if that's what it takes for you to feel better. I'm always here... I got my laptop back and I have no life so I'll bend over backwards for you... I hope you feel better soon... and I wish I could say something meaningful but I really can't. I fail at life and can't console you... no matter how hard I try. But if you want to talk, again, I'm here.

I miss you already... It's heart shattering that we haven't talked in so long... </3

~Vei... the poofy furred L-:

[Featherz]

Cher I feel so sorry for you. Because you are trying to stay online I respect you. I hope you get better. You might not feel the same as me. But I believe that the dead follow you around a bit like shinigame in death note. But slightly different. Anyway my point is, if you also believe what I believe, you can talk to them and they will hear you. I only really believed this when my Grandma passed. Stay strong Cher and just, think of all the happy times you spent with your mum and grandparents. :'( 8D

[»Neoɴ]

i'm quite speechless.

i don't want to force you to get happy again since i have no right and no ability but..

take your time to heal.

don't press the guilt on yourself too much. i keep my minor mistakes inside me unconsciously and it (overreactingly) hurts so much, don't know if i can deal with a situation like you had.

you're really strong, and i admire that.

we'll always try understand you.

and i'm proud of you to make this post.

we love you too.